Week of June 7th

So this coming week I have some goals I'd like to accomplish.  First, is somehow getting off my exhausted butt and exercising again.  I got sick a little over a month ago and I haven't been able to get back into anything physical since then.  Not that I was doing tons before, but weeks of having zero energy just did me in.

My goal is to take some easy walks, nothing too long or strenuous, Monday through Friday.  Just want to take some baby steps, get used to the routine of it.

So this morning K and I took the dog for a walk.  It was more of a walk/light jog because K wanted to run, so I ran with her.  Well, at least as much as a fat woman can, plus K has much shorter legs than me, I don't have to go very fast to keep up with her.  I was wearing my Vibram Five Fingers.  They are SO awesome, I just love them!  If I'm wearing shoes I can't run at all, after about 10 seconds my shins are screaming and burning in pain.  I can push myself through the kind of pain that comes from being too fat and trying to exercise, but that shin pain is excruciating.  Wearing the Vibram's makes me want to run, and I can actually do it, with NO PAIN!  A friend of mine started talking about barefoot running awhile ago and it always intrigued me, but I was scared to really try it.  Or maybe I was more scared of having anyone see me try it.  Or hear me, when you're my size there are too many things flapping and too much huffing and puffing and gasping for air.  But it actually feels good to feel the warmth of the ground on your feet, you feel more at one with the earth, er...well the cement or black top around here, but for me it is a totally different experience than walking or jogging with shoes.  And the freedom from pain is a big plus too!

My next goal is water.  Water, water, water.  I know I haven't been drinking nearly enough lately so it's definitely something to work on.

And I need to continue working to pay attention to my body, when I eat, why I eat, what other feelings might I be trying to push away, how hungry I am, when I feel full.  Even if I don't start making any different choices yet I need to first be aware of all these things all the time.