Accountability

This new blog is going to be about accountability.  I'm tired of "trying" to lose weight and never being able to do it.  I'm ready to shed all my demons...all the nagging thoughts where I tell myself that I suck at everything and I'll never be able to do it, when I tell myself nobody really likes me so who cares if I'm fat, all the put downs and self-degradation.  I'm tired of that.  I know it won't be easy to think differently about myself, but it's the only way I'm ever going succeed.  I have to believe that I am worthy and deserving of health and happiness, or I'm doomed to stay this way forever.  So this is the start of my new way of thinking and I need to be accountable, or else it will be too easy to slip back into old habits.

To begin with, I currently weight 268.2 lbs.  I have lost 24 lbs, but I've been stuck in the 268-271 range for the past 5 months.  I feel like I've put up this huge mental wall and I have been unable to break through it.  I am definitely happy to be maintaining!  BUT, I'm ready to see that scale go down again!  I still have about 110-120 lbs left to lose, so it's time to get my head back in the game.