Doing surprisingly well

So on Day 3 I did better than I thought I would.  Made it the entire day without having any sweets at all.  And then...  My husband sits down on the couch with me and has a big bowl of ice cream.  He offers me some and I say no because 1) I've made it 3 whole days and I'm feeling pretty good about that, and 2) this particular ice cream tastes like crap, and if I wanted to cheat I wanted it to be on something good.  But he says "I got this much so I could share it with you, so you have to have some."  UGH.  So, I allowed myself to be sabotaged or enabled or whatever you want to call it.  I didn't actually eat that much, because like I said it tastes like crap and I am admittedly an ice cream snob.

All in all I have eaten so much less sugar than usual that I guess the day was still a success.

Yesterday was the 4th day and I was dreaming of a McDonald's mocha frappe with the hot fudge drizzled on top.  Mmmmmmm....  But I didn't stop to get one, and it's quite possible the only reason was that I was 2 lanes away and there was too much traffic to get over in time to turn, but still, I didn't cave.  I did take the kids to get lunch while we were out shopping, and got an Oreo shake for all of us to share.  I poured the kids' first and had what was left, which was truly only about 3 ounces worth.  The younger two were being exceptionally difficult all day long, which normally would have sent me on a total chocolate bender to calm myself from the frustration of it all.  But I didn't find myself really craving it and didn't have any.  Now, had someone put one of those mocha frappes in front me I doubt I would have had any self control.

So, while I haven't been completely sugar free, I'm quite shocked at the lack of desire I have felt for it.  There have been lots of times I have thought about it, but I think that has been more because I was so used to having so much that I just felt like I should.  But I was able to feel that I didn't necessarily want it and so didn't eat it.  I really don't know what could possibly have switched in my brain, or for how long it will stay that way, but I'm going to go with it for now.