Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Why is it so hard for me?

So hard to just decide to DO IT, that is.  I hear so many stories of people and their success at losing weight.  And for me, it just never really clicks.  I say I want to, I'll try to do better, but in the end I never really do.  My drive to lose the weight is obviously not anywhere near as strong as my drive to eat chocolate.  I want my health to be more important to me than the power that food holds over me, but I can't seem to get to that place in my head where I think of that before I put food in my mouth or make up some excuse for not exercising.

I wish I could wake up in the morning and just decide that I'm going to do everything in my power to reach my goals.  I know everyone has setbacks, but I seem to have them every day, quite often multiple times a day.  I'm not doing everything I could be doing, not even close.  Maybe I decide in the morning that I'm going to have a great day, but by mid-afternoon I've already something to screw that up.  I know that's part of the perfectionist in me, if something can't be dong RIGHT according to my own very high standards, then I just don't try...because you can't fail at something you haven't even tried.  So even though I say I'm trying and maybe even think I'm trying, really I'm not because of my aversion to failure.

1 comment:

  1. "Flight Plan" or "Goals:How to get everything you want" by Brian Tracy or Goals:Setting and Achieving them on schedule" by Zig Ziglar or even "Letting go of your Bananas" by Dr. Daniel T Drubin. These are all good books that Tim listens to in the car, he checks them out from the library. Anyway every time I get in the car they are going and something is so inspiring that I have to change what I do. Anyway they might inspire you! Suzi

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